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Do you know what it is like to scream in the night, To writhe in terror in the absence of some light? Do not pretend you are safe in your own head. Reach out to others and make both of your worlds bright.

i. your words drip with crimson as you bite your lip; you always liked to pretend you held the strength of metal, and now all that’s left is the aftertaste of copper trickling down your throat- what happened to the child throwing pennies in the fountain? ii. hidden under the threaded sleeves of your sweater, I can picture your hands shaking like earthquakes and your fists held clenched; I worry your fingernails cut dashed lines into the palms of your hands, like the ones painted on back roads and highways- I’m worried where you plan on going iii. viewing your puffy eyes and hearing woebegone-winded words tangle on your tra

Okay so it failed this I know, My delusions were covered with hope, Hope that was lost when I heard the news, You tore us apart, my heart was confused. Why did this happen I thought we were settled But no your mouth wanted to meddle with the work I put in to save us I didn't think you would give up on us. This is done and in the past, But my friendship with others? Forever will last.

Mesmerized by the silvery shine, I stare into the mirror of mine. A twisted reflection back at me, Are all the people I'll never be. Teasing me with their perfect faces, Gnarled into each others embraces. To them it must be so routine, I reach out to touch the puzzling scene. Mirror, Mirror, On the wall, Will I ever be as good as them all? Inhuman, Inadequate, Defective, Imperfect. Never as good, I had to disconnect. So isolated in this dark room, Content, yet trapped, in my self-built tomb. As I twist into a distressing shape, I cry and I try to find an escape. Haunted by people who click so naturally, I realize this world

What if I told you I loved you in vain, what if I hold you, would you still feel pain ? Can a kiss make you happy or would it just burn, could I hold you close or will you just turn ? And what if I've loved you from the day that we met ? Would you be as kind ? Or we'd both be sad ? What if your touch could cure all my pain, would you still be here or never with me again ? Would you have me close ? Or kiss me tomorrow ? Cause only three words can cure all my sorrow.

Hey remember me? I'm lonely Without anyone to talk to, Yeah we met last week I'm so glad You actually remembered me. Hey remember me? I'm happy That we could hang out. I know it might Seem a bit strange to ask But are we friends? Yeah?! Thank goodness Now I can be at ease You’re really here with me It wasn't just a tease. Hey remember me? I'm weird Just a little bit though I thought you liked me Because of that Because of the way I am Right? Hey remember me? I'm trying To keep up a smile But it’s getting pretty hard Because every once in awhile It seems like all you want Is for me to cry. Is that what a friend does? Hey rem

I want someone to talk to it may not sound like much but its all I want of you I want to never be alone to never be forced to hear the silent creaks of my home I want someone to share with me to give me the pieces of their day through tiny conversations, and hearty stories till there's nothing left to say I want someone to stay with me on those many cold nights when the only thing that can keep me warm are their sweet whispered delights I want someone it hardly matters who to stick with me and stay with me through the transgressions of my days the weaknesses of my soul and share the same with me make me feel whole I want to someone to ta